At the beginning of my year in Europe, it was a joke between us that the theme of our year was moving. This was because we had moved around the Pharos office, the Girls' Household twice, and Sam within about 2 weeks of our arrival. The moving slowed a bit throughout the year, but for me, that wasn't the end.
Why bring up moving?
Well, pretty much, that's what I'm doing this summer. I moved to Scotland in the middle of May. I stayed with a woman for 3 weeks. Then, I moved in with a family for a week. After that, I moved into household with 3 other girls for about 2 days before I traveled to Belgium. There, I spent 10 days, 2 of which were spent on a camping trip. I traversed back to Scotland and I stayed in household for 2 and a half weeks before I went to help at the Sentry Holiday for 4 days. 4 more days came and went and I found myself at the start of my first Kairos summer program: Summer Mission Households 2012.
You'd think that'd be enough moving, right? Well, don't forget, I've still got more insanity to go! This summer program ends on the 22nd. I'm around for a couple of days before I head back to Belgium. I'm there for a couple of days before I go to Kairos Summer Academy for 10 days. The day that ends is the day that I go to On Holiday 3 and stay in a Kairos cottage. After that, I come back to Scotland and back home.
By my calculations, that's close to 15 different living situations from May to August. Most people wouldn't find that too pleasurable, but as a creature of comfort and familiarity, I dislike it even more. But, there's something to it as well. One, I'm busy. So busy that I almost don't have time to focus on my dislike of this. Second, I'm doing it with some fantastic people. Who doesn't want to be around friends constantly? The answer: an introvert. I am definitely not one of those. Thirdly, I'm where I'm supposed to be, which just happens to be a lot of places in a short period of time.
I've spent a lot of time focusing on moving in this post. Let's switch topics from moving to moving.
That's right. You read it correctly.
Moving can mean transporting something or someone from one place to another. However, it can also mean that something can arouse deep feeling as well.
During all of this, I've had so much support and love from people wherever I've been in these past couple of months. I've been stepping out of my comfort zone time and time again, yet I've not worried like usual because I know that people are here for me and praying for me. The amount of love that's been showered upon me is something that has been transforming and healing. I've been wrestling with different thoughts recently, the most current one being love. How much do I get? How much do I need? How much do I deserve?
After pondering this for far too long, I realized that I was missing the key point. The common theme through these questions is "I." That's not what love's about at all. That's what I need to remember.
With all the moving I'm doing, I can only hope that I am a bumblebee. Hopefully, I'll be able to take the love that I receive in each one of the places I've been and transplant it and share it with those I'm around in my new environment.
*I know that's not exactly the kind of update you're probably wanting, but I'm short of time at the moment. I'm sure that in a month's time, I'll have SO much to share. So, hold on until then.*
